i feel loved again – sorry for my lapse of that recognition. i am human etc. etc.
thanks for the email replies since i seemed to have disabled comments for those not registered at some point. still didn’t stop the spam from coming in though. (more…)
is anyone reading this bloody thing yet? i’ve started attaching it to the bottom of emails to people i actually want to read it. i would post it on myspace or something but i don’t really want everyone there reading it. (more…)
i had the pleasure of watching the National Geographic special on the 1995 Kobe earthquake Saturday night. that little rocker killed about 6,000 people right here where i’m living – i’ve been to the memorial sites, but seeing the footage on that program was just really disturbing…i probably won’t sleep naked until summer. it would be me buried in the rubble, pulled out in front of the cameras in my birthday suit. (more…)
i’m struggling somewhere between the depressive state of not having any energy or really wanting to do anything and pissed off with the fact that my doctor says i should be taking it really easy and not do much. it’s like you know, if i am pregnant – wonderful! i will be so overjoyed and happy and want to sing the joys to the world, but if i’m not – can i please get on with my life already? i don’t like this feeling like i can’t share anything with anyone cause i don’t know what is really to share at this point – grief, hope, joy, or loss? wtf!?!
they looked for you today – they found the same room you had two weeks ago but it seemed as though no-one was home. all i can do is pray you return by next week. the doctor said “sorry” after she couldn’t find you. it’s hard to stay positive after that, but i’m going to try my best to still hope. また来週ね。
I assume this is the dilemma for most women who find out they’re pregnant – to tell or not to tell. Sometimes I wish we could’ve been the kind of couple who just let nature take its course and were surprised to find after 2.5 months that I’m pregnant! Then I would only have a couple of weeks to keep it under wraps. (more…)
